Expectations .

well to many things are happening all at a time.

-my dad wants me to pick up tennis.
-i don’t know which group to pick in school.
-fall out boy concert.
-my phone choices.
-the reason behind why i’m so petrified of my dad.
-and who i am.

today at school, the Otto’s came. they’re a band from australia. 3 siblings. i think johnathan otto is hotttt (: they performed about 3 to 4 songs onstage and johnathan gave a speech -a really funny one- about god’s existance. i was really sad when i was listening to this speech, yet i was laughing and smiling. because i asked myself who i was and i couldn’t think of anything at all. i couldn’t find the right words for anything. how pathetic. now my goal in life is to search for me.

and today i asked whether we can bring mac books to school. well, to use them as laptops and the woman at the office said we can. such a shame. i want a new vaio! well, its alright. doesn’t really matter anymore.

after school, i got a call from my aunt. she told me about the ice cream phone 2. she said it comes in 3 colours, i was already well aware of that. she insisted on getting the phone for me when i go back during the march holidays. i LOVE you for that offer, but dad is giving me his iPhone 3G. as much as i love that phone, i’m too afraid to ask him. gosh, i don’t even know why i’m so afraid of him.

a random statement, i must say : OH, THE HONEYCOMB SWEETNESS.

hahah. i can’t wait for fall out boy’s concert. they’re awesome.

but somehow i feel so apathetic. its like i want to shut down forever. well, who cares? no one. we’re beautiful and dirty rich 8D. haha! random song phrase by lady gaga. i <3 her.

haha well just so you know, i’m not emo. =) yes, i feel like i’m suicidal but i think its all crapp. sometimes i just feel like drowning myself but come to think of it, its quite stupid. i believe in karma anyways =)

sighhhs, i’m missing every single one of you peeps.

so i’ll let you go, i’ll set you free
and when you see what you need to see.
when you find you, come back to me.

~ by 동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] on January 30, 2009.