C'est L'amour

SMILE:]!

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 15:28:39 +0000

I have this strong feeling inside of me but I really can’t tell what it is. Currently, I’m angry and sad at the same time. I looked at it from a different angle and figured that all this hatred and sadness that I put upon myself would be worthless in the future. So, I don’t care anymore. I’m just gonna pretend I’m half blind and enjoy life. Keeping people who are “unfriendly” out of my life and just go with the floooow (: Right now, I’m pushing everything aside and continue my journey with my BIGBANG obsession (: So I have no best friends. Haha, just “good” friends. Sure, I have friends who I trust but I don’t feel secure enough. Time will pass by and who knows what will happen in the future.

This is just childish behavior. I thought this through thoroughly and I’ve already decided that I will not turn back. It is how it is now and I know I can do nothing to change it.

But, DUH. I’m going to have fun. Although I sometimes feel that I have not many friends, this is enough for me. I don’t really NEED a lot of friends. It’s hard deciding if you want to let others in or not. I’m gonna lead a HAPPY life with HAPPY people in it.

Thanks for all your patience and ears;

SIEW KHEA;; unnie!

SIEW WEI;; maknae.

CLARE;; unnie!

SONIA;; unnie.

SAMSON;; oppa!

BILLY;; oppa!

DIXON;; oppa.

P.S. : You are really killing me with your smile, my angel ♥

There are times where you gotta make decisions. And this is my time, I think x] Ah, there’s no point being this mature anyways! Like I said, we’ll just see what happens in the future. One thing for sure is that I’m going to be happy. I’m not going to allow assholes to ruin my life! Just ‘cuz of one tiny thing, it doesn’t mean it’s the end of the world.

I’m finally moving on, I guess.

SMILE ALWAYS!

Inspiration : Clarissa Low Shi Ying ♥

bring it

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 14:18:32 +0000

WHY CAN’T YOU SEEEEE? YOU BELONG WITH ME!

SIGH, wish I could tell him that he is the one I want and not the other one. I feel as if there’s no one left for me to talk to about anything anymore. Haha, I wish I asked my dad if Sonia can come. It would be waaaaay less boring with her here because the guys are too engrossed with their gaming

Sigh. WAE? Yeah D: My life..? It doesn’t suck. It rocks, actually. HAHA! My LOVE life? Yea that sucks. And so does my friend life lol. Does that count? Sigh. EVERYONE! I have something to tell you all; I hate my friend life -.- All of them are deserting me lol. ALL, EVERYONE. EVEN YOU WHO IS READING THIS (except Clarissa because I’m the one who isn’t replying her LOL)

Sigh. I don’t know why but it feels as if we’re drifting apart. Is it my fault? IF IT IS, you should talk to me about it and not shut up you know. This is a special note to my best friends;

SIEW KHEA – Hey Char Siew Pau Sexy Lady Bom Unnie! HOW’S LIFE WITH *AHEM* xD NO OFFENCE BUT IMHO IT’S WEIRD TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE YOU’VE JUST MET ONCE! Nvm, as long as you are happy then I’m happy too! (: DON’T WORRY! If you really don’t love him you still have me (: Don’t force yourself! Other than that, CONGRATS. Don’t take that relationship to the next level x] haha, you kno what I mean! BE CAREFUL. N.O. i love you (:

SIEW WEI – HEY SIEW MAI CUTE BABY DARA! I know your sister is evil x] THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. I have nothing much to say to you because you were the one who has been the one who was always there. Never changed lol, even if you did it was for the better anyways (: I love you, tooooooooo! YOU ARE AN AWESOME SINGER+DANCER lol. And YOU ARE SO CUUUTE! (: Thanks for being a fangirl with me so I don’t feel like such a weirdo! (: BIG BANG AND 2NE1 FOR LIFEE.

SONIA – WE WE WE DA WE DA LEADERS. YOU KNO THIS IS. Whassup! It’s CHI CHEONG FUN SKINNY LADY MINZY *in da house* Ahem, stupid video (: Thanks for being a stupid girl who compliments me all the time though I know it’s not true ;D PLUS, you would not want my voice or my face because it’s bad for you! Haha. I know I’m cool (8 THANKYOU THANKYOU. Haha, joking la. Thanks for making me feel like YOUR ONE AND ONLY ______! PLEASE, i’m the best to follow. Thanks for not coming to singapore traitorrr. Haha, joking. Sorry for bullying you lol and making fun of you all the time. ILY ♥

Yeah (: MALAYSIA FRIENDS HWAITING! (:

AS FOR SINGAPORE. you there’s only one XD

CLARISSA LOW SHI YING THE BEAST COW DOG TEACHER CLOWN OH MY YING YING. Haha. Thanks la. You know, for everything. Your long posts for me and all your noisy lectures! x] YOU ARE THE BEST TEACHER EVER! Got me a B for math ;D I LOVE YOU. What more can I say? Haha, a lot BUT YOU WOULD NOT WANNA HEAR IT. So thanks anyway (: ILY. Thanks for being my “only friend” in Singapore. Haha, team CLARE hwaiting! (: and sorry for not replying u also. Hehehe.

I’m asking him to change his ways ♥

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 11:19:00 +0000

just cavali is the bomb! I love my parents and my auntie ;D I didn’t buy the pants but I bought a winter jacket which is fox leather lol.

OKAY~ I went to Mandarin *something* again then I went to Orchard Central then Wisma. We walked lol. Haha, it was fun ;p Kinda. CONGRATULATIONS SIEW KHEA!! It’s okay Kelvin cheer up XD

I bought the blackjacks flipflops and FINALLY, yellow nailpolish. and pink and blue ones also lol.

Sigh, really tired today.. Anyway

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE!

hope u enjoy being 1, cousin ;D

YG FAMILY HWAITING! (:

OK gotta go now. bye

Protected: Fucking Bastard!

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 09:30:17 +0000

BABY BABY

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 09:06:27 +0000

Hey guys. I just came back from shopping. OMG, it was damn boring. First, we went to Paragon for lunch. I went in Adidas and almost bought a jacket lol but didn’t in the end and went in Evisu. OMFG i saw these awesome jeans but it’s for guys. I tried it on LOL, my mom scolded me XD

Then we walked around… OMFG, you know life is so damn unfair. MY SISTER, WHO IS 7 FYI, bought a winter jacket and a pair of boots from ARMANI? I’ve been longing to buy Armani stuff and I wasn’t allowed to! WTF, she’s 7! Sigh. Oh, well.

I kind of like *beeeeeeeep* a little now LOL. Shhhhhh x]

Yea… Then we walked out and went to Takashimaya? There’s like nothing there, really :/ So we walked and saw this shop called Bread and Butter and entered. OH MY SHITTING HELL ITS TRUE RELIGION! ED HARDY! Ah. *faints*. I bought 2 pairs of jeans there lol but their not like those outlandish sorts which you always see me wearing x]

DUM DUM DUM. You guys. I SAW GALLIANO. But I was quite disappointed because there were so little stuff. And the two things I was looking for was not there. Then I walked pass just cavali. OMFG, the pants there are damn nice. But I bet if my mom saw that I wanted those pants, she’d kill me. Did I mention Y3 is a very boring brand? -.-

Yea. So that’s it. Today was pretty boring :/ SIGH, damn my sister.

YAP SIEW KHEAAAAAA. I’m sorry again xD Haha. I promise I’ll reply you from now, lol. Btw, I’m coming back earlier you guys so wait for me! (: Haha, OMG I AM SO EXCITED FOR MY JAPAN TRIP. I even made a list of the brands I want to see (or buy if i can hahaha)

JEREMY SCOTT FTW (: ♥

for the kooky clarissa’s eyes only :)

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 16:12:31 +0000

Babe I just wanna say thankyou (: right now, you are the only one i am not mad at. Haha! And my three other friends too la. AC and FBJA is annoying me like hell D: Sigh. They say i’m their best friend but they don’t treat me like one? Well, whatever. Sigh. How many times must I thank you?! Haha, a lot (: You know. You never ask me to do stuff for you but you do stuff for me. I FEEL SO MEAN.

Thanks for being so nice. It’s just so you can make me look like the evil one, right? XD haha, joking la! Just want you to know that I’m extremely grateful for everything that you’ve done for me. You made me realize that I really didn’t need to be so sad all the time and that I should stop thinking too much. You also made me know that there’s no point for me to hold on to something that isn’t there anymore. Thanks a lot babe. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

so yeah. Here is one of Rachel’s many thankyou posts XD

THANKYOU

KAMSAMNIDA

ARIGATOU

TERIMA KASIH

XIE XIE NI

DOH JE XAI

MERCI

GRACIAS

SALAMAT

JAG TACKAR

KHAWP KHUN

NANDRI

♥

ADIDAS JEREMY SCOTTTT!

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 09:36:15 +0000

Hey peeps. My family is here lol and so are Sam and Billy. I just came back from shopping for Winter clothes. OK, first we went to Ion to have lunch. We walked around and went in a few shops. My sis and cousin bought matching fliflops from this shop called havainas. Gay, right? And OMG, they sold these awesome flipflops which was blackjack design! Damn. Then my mom bought a winter jacket from Miss sixty and a jacket from Hilfiger…. Racist?! Haha..

We walked around. OH, I walked pass this shop where they sold awesome tights. I didn’t get a chance to go in though D: NVM, i’m going to Ion again tomorrow anyway x] without my dad. So I can shop even more!! (: Haha, after Ion we went to the Adidas Originals shop in Pacific Plaza (?) IT’S DAMN AWESOME. I saw Bom’s and CL’s shoes. I wanted to get the CL ones but all are so HUGE sizes. Ah, bull.

I tried on the dress CL wore. It’s nice but not on me LOL. So I bought the TV skirt CL wore and a tiger tracksuit set. HAHA, It’s damn cuuuute! Holy fuck man. I love the shoes there D: Oh, well. MAYBE THEY HAVE IN JAPAN. Hopefully. And Malaysia also. SIEW KHEA WE HAVE TO CHECK IT OUT PLEASE ;D So anyway.. We spent $2000+ in total so we got 20 lucky draw picks. I took them all LOL. I won 16 shoe laces and 4 x’mas CDs. CRAZY RIGHT. It’s $100 per draw x]

trust me lol. it looks much better when u wear it.

Then we went to shaw centre. My dad bought 2 jackets and 2 shirts from Ralph Lauren. OMG, he didn’t even try on the shirt -.- He just bought it. Plus, I think I knew why he bought it LOL. Cuz it said JAPAN at the back hahaha. We are going Japan. Geddit? x]

So in the end I didn’t get winter clothes or my adidas shoes or the adidas hoodie I wanted.. SADFACE. Surprisingly, it’s a bit little for me to buy, right? HAHA! Okay, signing out now. Byes! (:

No lie!

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 13:13:16 +0000

Now, I really know who to trust and who to not. Team Singapore? My shit. I won’t give a fuck about it anymore. I hate everyone in Singapore. It’s back to Square One again. When it was surrounded with thoughts of me killing myself. But I just gotta give a thumbs up to Clare. I know I’m such a drag lol, complaining to you. Hehe, she’s the one who helped me pull through a lot of things and there’s hell again next year so I hope we’ll be in the same class and go through everything again as best friends.

I’m gonna turn away from my Singapore friends. Never ever trusting them or letting them in my world anymore. There’s a wall between us now. Fuck them. I HATE YOU ASSHOLES! WHY DID U HAVE TO MAKE MY LIFE SO BAD! I thought we were real friends but you guys are just bullcrap. I would love to name all of you bitches but I won’t be so mean. You guys just ruin my life. I won’t trust ANY of you anymore because you guys are so full of yourself! You can’t take jokes and act like someone else infront of me. Once you get what you want, you’ll go run to your “OTHER” friends.

So fuck you bitches. I’m sorry for myself for actually considering you guys as my friends. So team Singapore? My fuck. You guys were such a mistake! You irritate me so get the fuck out of my face, biznitches. Thansk for ruining my life, fuckfaces.

I know this is an angry post but this other half I’d like to dedicate to all my real friends. I hope you won’t turn your back on me just like how the other assholes did. I trust you guys and I hope we won’t break any of it because if we do, I’ll be over. So my life actually depends on you guys. So these are the particular people who I love! Sorry. I’ve been a really bad friend. I promise you guys that I’ll stop being such a bitch at times and give my love to you 100%! (:

CLARISSA LOW SHI YING the Beast Clown Dog
YAP SIEW KHEA char siew pau sexy lady BOM.
YAP SIEW WEI siew mai DARA.
SONIA CHEW Choo Train chi cheong fun MZ.
KELVIN NG cute maknae
KWAN JI ANNE awesome lady <3
SHEUELI CHOONG <3
BILLY LIM JAP YIP
SAMSON CHOONG WEN SHEN
DIXON PANG WAY HOOOOOOEE! (: kyu bong shino!

I know I might annoy you guys sometimes but you should already know that I love you guys the most and I will never let go of you. You’re my backbone and I’d have nothing left without you guys (: I love you. Clare, you are my number 1 always. Thanks for being so awesome. I love you guys so much! (: Sorry for being so mean at times. I just don’t know how to express my love ;D

Thank you guys for making my life LIVABLE. Haha, is that even a word? IDK. Thanks for always being there for me too! ILY!

AT THE END OF THE DAY EVERYBODY JUS WANTS TO B HAPPY

sweet dreams~

[UPDATED] Speeeeech Day!

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 06:00:16 +0000

PEOPLE. I just came back from Speech Day. It was. the. most. BORING DAY IN MY LIFE! Sitting in the room with Shayne, it got so awkward. Sarah, Dyan and Enxin were too busy with Justin Bieber. Thanks Dyan for the gift. I got a really nice wallet and 3 packets of candy :/ Haha, THANKYOU! When it was time to go to the hall. It was even more boring. Sitting next to Cheryll and Oliver. Two silent people :/

Emotional? MY ASS! It wasn’t at all -.- And the emcee was DAMN enthusiastic *sarcasm* Omg waste my day -.- And I couldn’t even see anything lol. And the speeches were damn boring D: I fell asleep. Well, tomorrow it’s Elizabeth’s birthday gathering. We’re watching a movie. I was kinda hoping it would be 2010 but she already watched it -.- and if it’s New Moon, which I doubt is even out yet, I am so NOT watching.

OMFG DAE WITH HIS SEXY ARMS ♥ I love.

OMGWTFBBQMOTHERFUCKERHOLYHELL. It’s sexy, huh? Beeeeeeeer.

Okay, gotta go now. I’m waiting for my dad and aunt to come. OMG, I can’t wait for my aunt to come. We’re going to the place in Orchard where they have ADIDAS BY JEREMY SCOTT. Oh, yes baby (: JEREMY SCOTT FTW! ♥

I MISSSSSS MY CHAR SIEW PAU. Lucky person! Going to Hong Kong D: I want to go too~ Bring me along please ;D

HI FOLLOWERS. Today is SPEECH DAY! Last day of school! I’m still waiting for the clock to read 3 PM then off I go to school. I’m gonna miss ALL OF YOU! Even the ones I hate. Yes, CHING. I’m gonna miss hating you ;D Hahaha! PLEASE WAIT FOR AN [UPDATED] TO APPEAR ON THE TITLE. Thankyou ;D

“I’m a bad boy with a lotta ho’z”

AH. SEUNG RI-AH. Must you BE THIS SEXY?! You’re killing me (8

even before all the fame and people screamin yo name

boy i was there and u were my baby~

it started when we were younger.

you.were.mine. (:

OKAY. So I’m hoping we’re going to TOKYO. There, they have HARAJUKU. I heard it’s a place where you can buy lotsa nice stuff. I’m not sure :/ It’s all those anime stuff. I USED TO LOVE ANIME. But not to an extent where I bought every anime thing I saw. Well, I kinda obsessed Death Note. DUH, my followers knew how crazy I was for Kenichi Matsuyama. And I collected everything I saw lol x] Haha. I got the whole comic set x] WELL, IT’S OKAY. Because BIGBANG loves collecting manga’s too! (: I saw Death Note and ONE PIECE (AWESOME!) WEEE. They were in JAPAN where they surprised GD and he cried D: AWW!

Please don’t go, stay by my side
Tonight I don’t want to be alone
Please don’t go, please stay
So that my heart towards you will be forever
My baby.

SEEEEEEE YOU AT SCHOOL. with that ugly formal attire -_-

This is it. WHAT?

동레영 [dongraeyoung;;] — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 15:31:02 +0000

Hey peeps. Beware rachel might cry tomorrow due to emotional reasons (; I’m gonna miss my Clare during the holidays. I’m sure to buy you something from JAPAN. Yes, JAPAN! We go to JAPAN! (: Anyways, I just wanna post something about my awesome Clarissa ;D School’s closing soon D: To tell you the truth, I kinda don’t want it to although I was waiting for it to x]

Okay so. I AM SORRRRRY! I completely ignored you today xD forgive muah~ Friday? Elizabeth’s birthday? OK! (: And once school closes down, WHO AM I GOING TO BITCH ABOUT MY PROBLEMS TO? There would be no more ‘ditching’ action anymore. IT’S FUN TO DITCH but not to be ditched (: SHHH! x: oops. TAKE THIS PARTY DOWN OH~ Hmm~ what to post about.. There was something I wanted to post but I forgot what it was :/

oh man. don’t get me started on this ♥ SHE CAN’T GET ENOUGH, SHE’S ADDICTED TO MY LOVE.

YES YES ME ! lol.

Anyways, CLARISSA! WHAT TO DO WITH OUT YOUUU~ Sigh. Thanks for listening to all my bullshit and CALM DOWN. Don’t care about the bitch and the bastard. Haha.

So I have this friend. Who sucks balls. Yea, you might be asking, “If he/she sucks balls, why is he/she even your friend?” HAHA, I DON’T KNOW OKAY! I WILL FEEL REALLY MEAN TELLING HIM/HER OFF. He/she sucks hell I tell you D: He/she thinks he is so cool BUT YOU ARE NOT, REALLY. Look at the mirror!!! See what kind of asshole you really are. And PLEASE. Don’t think so highly of yourself. You are nothing but. A. PIECE. OF. SHIT. (this reminds me of top x])

Miahne siew khea I barely reply your messages anymore. Hehe, OMG. MY MOM IS MESSING WITH MY PHOTOBOOTH?! x] I love my mommmmy. She is the best, really! (: and she is pissed at sonia LOL.

Sorry sorry, SONIA CHEW CHOO TRAIN. Haha, you never reply me so TOO BAD. Thanks la for leaving me D: BUT WE GO JAPAN! Speaking of JAPAN. SIEW KHEA IS GOING! (: and so is sonia…. Okay best to keep quiet now. What if I can’t go Japan? My life would suck balls. YES.

C U IN JAPAN!

madamoiselle yulia wooow (:

SWEET DREAMS, dear readers~